See My Side

I guess you could say that the past couple of weeks has found me doing a lot of introspective research.  I find that when things bothering me, it's easiest when I start looking for answers in the easiest place for me to reach: my own head. 

So how far has that gotten me?  It's lead me to a few comforting scriptures.  It's lead me to a couple of books I love to read over and over again.  I've had a few very necessary glasses of wine after dinner.  I've shared a few (and maybe a few too many!) cocktails with some friends.  I've shared a few dinners and some shopping with my amazing family.  I've spent a few weeks laughing and crying more than I have in a very long time. 

I think it's been months since I've felt this many emotions, and as scary as it has been, I love that it's happened. 

Sure, this whole ordeal has been sort of painful.  But along with that pain, I've been surrounded by a few people that have showered me with love and support.  In my humble opinion, love and support are never painful.  However, change can be. 

To me, this isn't about what happened to make me so self conscious.  It's about how to learn, grow, and move on.  In three very fitting words: get over it. 

So on my way to work on Friday, my iPod decided to give me a little shove in the right direction.  It played Jordin Sparks' "See My Side." 

For those of you that don't know it, I have the least subtle iPod in the world.  I can put my iPod on shuffle and it will play the same artist three or four times in a row.  Why?  Because it obviously felt I needed a little Britney Spears or Reckless Kelly that day.  Duh. 

So anyways.  I'm ending my self-absorbed and introspective rant with the lyrics from Friday's song.  They kind of smacked me in the head, and maybe someone else out there needs them too. 

(There's no music video for this song, so don't bother going to YouTube to look for one.) 

"See My Side"

I've been trying for days


To think of a way

To find the words to make sense

Of how we behave

This might take a while

So please just hear me out



We know how things can get crazy

When we go ablaze

We just get carried away

Believe me, I know

Don't even say a word

Now please just hear me out



[Chorus]

See my side

And I'll see yours better

Love me back

And I'll love you better



Sometimes the stunts that we pull

Don't even make sense

But I was never the one

To feel that resent

This ain't 'bout who's to blame

So please just hear me out



When the scene gets intense

It's hard to prevent

From going all crazy again

Believe me, I know

Don't even say a word

Now please just hear me out



[Chorus]

See my side

And I'll see yours better

Love me back

And I'll love you better



[Chorus]

See my side

And I'll see yours better

Love me back

And I'll love you better



We'll get right back

On the right track

We'll get right back on

We'll get right back on

On the right track



[Chorus]

See my side

And I'll see yours better

Love me back

And I'll love you better



[Chorus]

See my side

And I'll see yours better

Love me back

And I'll love you better